Just doing it
Not to go all Nike or anything but there really is something to that. I don’t even remember the context, but one time I was whining about something to my aunt. We get along well but rarely get an opportunity to really talk about stuff. I was getting all fussy about who knows what and she just looked at me and said, “you will get over this, because you have to.”
At the time I knew what she was saying was important but I guess it didn’t really register for me until this semester. I’m the Queen of Worrying and coming down hard both on myself and the people I love the most. Things have gotten pretty hairy lately and I’ve just realized that the way I handle things is by procrastinating and using the time that I should be working on things explaining to people what I should be doing and when it’s due and OHMYGOSH it’ll all never get done. Yeah, it totally won’t if you don’t do it, now will it?
This doesn’t apply only to school and I’m glad how I’ve seen her advice starting to spill over into other areas of my life. Being proactive in asking questions when I don’t understand what’s happening. Caring less about trusting in people to improve my attitude when the truth is it’s my responsibility. Internalizing more of my worries and using that energy to think it out logically.
You will get past the projects. You will get past the relationships that aren’t working out, the stress of too many things happening all at once, the upcoming changes in the lives of friends and family. You will get past health issues and job issues and family issues. But only if you put in the work, and people are so quick to leave that last little bit out. You have to actively want something to change or it just won’t. And you’ll get over all of it, because what other choice do you have?
